gretchen-lynne

"You are a liar. God hates liars. You don't even know who you are." The biggest lie I ever told was one you fed me. And it damn near destroyed me. Actually it still eats at me every day and I think it's killing me. I still feel fake. I'm still waiting for everyone to realize there's something wrong with me. I'm only pretending to be pretty, smart, a good friend. Sadistic bitch.. I was only a casualty from your personal Crusades. I don't think you'll ever know what you did to me.

I never thought it would be like this. It's always the least expected outcome. So why haven't I started expecting it yet? You might look like Jesus, but you're no savior. Don't worry, I might be smitten But I'm not delusional. Yet. Standing in the mirror with your arms wrapped around me. Where have I seen this before? It's deja vu all over again. But this time it's a little more raw A little spicier A little sweeter. I think I like the way things aren't turning out.

There are no "safe" relationships. I'm always coming or going; and always at the wrong time. Quite honestly, I don't want anyone to feel the same way about me as I do them. I wouldn't wish that madness on anyone. And even I know that you're better off without my instability. But I don't want to admit that I'm better off without yours. I packed my project with my other artwork to go back to school, so it's currently on hold. Just a few days now. I'm excited just for me. And slightly dreading the unexpected - of you.